I’m awake, I should be sleeping but I’m not. I have to be up by 5. I just want to sleep the day away and get lost in my dreams… But I guess ill take 3 hours of sleep… I just wish i could stop feeling guilty and stop worrying long enough to fall asleep…

Hmmm what’s a perfect word to describe my day???

I woke up late. Roomie randomly had ice cream for me o.O lol. Had lunch with kevin. Met with my study group. Started my take home test. Chanda randomly put a hersheys chocolate bar on my desk. I got irritated cause my friends were avoiding me. I was being ignored -_- not cool. I got mad at Kevin. Sat in the library for an hour and couldn’t focus. Left the library thinking I was going to worship. Instead Kevin was like “were going somewhere else”. I was still mad. We get to our spot and there’s Disney music playing and candles that say “Gf?”. Then Kevin tries so hard to find the right words to say and he asked me to officially be his girlfriend ^.^ I say yes! His amazingly awesome friends pop out and I’m still so surprised. At this point of my day I pretty much forgot about everything that happened before…

I can’t seem to find the best word to describe this day and how I feel. I know that I am crazy happy and beyond surprised (: I was really blessed with having met this guy ^.^ lol I have a boyfriend

• Kevin: "Yea I can't wait until I have what Megan and Tim had"
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• Kevin: "For a day. . ."
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• Kevin: "But for reals!"
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• Kevin: "And for more than a day!"
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• Me: "Ummmm. . . . Yea, I was kinda hoping we would last for more than just a day" x)
• LOL!
• *Ohh how I missed him and his way with words (:

So today he asked me what I was thinking… I wanted to tell him but I was too scared to… I was scared to tell him that I was thinking about him and how crazy happy I would be every time I heard him call me his girlfriend (:

It’s so different with him, even my mom noticed that… I care way more than I ever have, I care if his parents approve, I care if his friends like me, I care if my friends like him, I care if my family approves … I don’t want something to come between us… I’m way happier with him than I’ve ever been with any guy, and funny thing is my mom agrees with that and she hasn’t even seen the two of us together yet lol… with him I can actually picture us together ^.^ …  with other guys it didn’t really phase me that I couldn’t picture things working out… but with him its different.

Honestly it’s hard to explain how happy he makes me ^______^ he just has this way of making me feel perfect, which is silly because I know I’m far from perfect. He has the ability to always make me smile, even when I don’t want to.

He probably has no idea how ridiculously sweet he is but I absolutely love it!

It’s weird, actually no it’s not weird…

Ireally, really like him

^____________^

Taking bio was definitely the best mistake I’ve ever made!

Yea so all that was going through my head when he asked me what I was thinking x)

hahaa that would’ve been a lot to tell him

(:

(well really I’m glad yesterday is over but same difference)

Saying my final goodbye to grandma was the hardest thing to do… I’m so glad I had my cousins with me, the family held eachother up <3

Grandmother Willow, that’s what I’m going to refer to her as now, because ill hear her wherever I go and ill always look to her for guidance… I’ll be studying for my finals and I’ll hear her say “no no! You need to shake and bake well you’re still young” (:

Grandma will never be gone from us, she’ll live on as long as we do!

I love you forever and always grandma and I know I’ll see you again one day and we can shake and bake together!!! <3 <3 <3

(:

The first of march has never been so bitter :(

No final goodbye.

Just a deep sleep is what she fell into.

I know she’s not hurting anymore, but now we are.

She was the glue of our family, she brought us all together.

Now I’m scared things won’t be the same without her.

But I know she’s happy being reunited with her children that left before her.

I just really wish I could’ve seen her one more time.

:(

I love you forever and always grandma! <3

The guy you really, really like, decides to spend time with you instead of going out with his friends ^_____^

Some guys are real jerks and pick on the girl they like,

Some guys are really shy and avoid the girl they like,

Some guys are really sweet and do just about anything for the girl they like,

and then you have some guys who are really weird with the girl they like and lick her forehead O.o and then flick her in the same spot -____-

hahaa! x)

As weird as he is I really like this guy! (:

What started out being a simple birthday dinner for my uncle George turned into a huge surprise for me (: My Nina and Nino came in from Texas unexpectedly! :D

I’ve been missing them like crazy and they randomly show up out of nowhere!

Finally being able to talk to them in person is way better than over skype ^.^ haha and boy did they have so many questions! -_- But I can’t complain cause they need to catch up on so much.

I’m def glad to be home this weekend! Spending all my time with my godparents until they leave Tuesday morning

<3 I love my family!!

I’m pretty sure I really like him…

(:

It’s kinda weird yet cool how your family can sense when something is wrong.

I got a call from my nina and nino awhile ago (: made my night 100% better!

A year ago today I thought I was losing one of the most important people in my life. My nino was deployed and we got the call that he might not make it home. That was truly the worst moment of my life, I couldn’t picture life without him. But he was one of the few who were saved that week. And boy am I grateful for that!

Being able to talk to them tonight was just what I needed!! (: <3 

I like how I txt my roomie and she replies back all weird telling me she knows there’s something I’m not telling her (: hahaha! She said she’s waking me up when she gets here so we can talk ^_^ what a creeper my roomie is! lol.

I’m slowly adapting to that word. I never liked change in my life before. But this year (and I mean school year, not 2012 year. lol) has brought quite a bit of change so far. I didn’t think I was going to survive this summer but I went with the change and became my own person. I never realized how much I could’ve changed in 3 years, but now I’m able to be whoever I want to be. I like this feeling of independence and being just “Isabella” (: It’s funny how all my life I’ve been Bella and now I’m Isabella. I guess growing up is another form of ‘Change’ lol. Ahh but I totally freaked out today when my roomies decided to change up our room. At first I was loving the idea but once they started moving stuff omg it was weird! 0.o haha But I have to admit I LOVE the way our room is now!! I love it more than the way it was before!! So see I’m taking this as a sign that I can handle change, I just need to take a step back and then conquer it. (: I love being at La Sierra. Being here is helping me find out more about myself.